It was hard to come into work today. I’ve been going through one of my little internal crisises again. I think i’ll finally take Chris’ advice and go see a shrink. I can’t seem to get a handle on myself anymore. I’ve never thought of myself as an anxious person, but I can’t shake the feeling of forboding when I look into the future. I know that I’m not alone in this respect, but it becomes hard for me to want to participate in the game. I work, because buying shit distracts me from the lonliness in my life. I used to be very social and ougoing, but these past few years that has changed.
Maybe I’m hitting my mid-life crisis a little early. I just don’t feel relavent like I once did. Blame the world, myself, or both? I refuse to feel guilt or remorse about my past, but to stay optimistic about my future seems fleeting, like trying to hold sand in my fist.
I need help.
I think you’ll really like having someone you don’t know that does this for a living help you. How do you like my run on sentence?
C
Yeah. It’ll be nice to dump my shit on a stranger who just has to take it.
Actually I’ll chime in on this. Yea a shrink is kind of rad to talk to. You pay them to unload with both barrels all the stuff that you have built up. Even dumb and seemingly meaningless stuff. And you leave with the feeling like when you go to the doctor and mysteriously feel much better then you did going in. Keep your chin up bro!
Also Chris when are you going to arrange a beach house visit to help cheer this guy up?